Baby #2

 I really could not fathom what it would be like to have a second baby.  My first baby was so precious and I stressed over every little thing to try and do right by him.  I really tried to be present and enjoy every second of baby time, but now looking back I really did not get to appreciate it properly because I was such a tired zombie for 14 months.  I felt overwhelmed and wondered consistently what to do and what was next.  I really could not tell how I would love a new baby as I love my first baby so all consumingly.

When he was born I was numb, waiting for the other shoe to drop with complications.  I had a worse experience with the C-section and then the other complications, but the baby is so sweet, snuggly and lovable.  He is a sleeper, gas bubble maker, good diaper filler baby.  I fell in love so quickly.  The sweet, soft hair and skin is irresistible.  He has his own character and personality that holds it's own and will be his own mark.  He was not kicking in the belly in the last weeks inside me because he is such a sleeper that he would prefer to rest and grow than kick and play.  Brian is wonderful and I can be in love with multiple people and still love the others fervently too.  The feeling is nothing that I could have imagined and so great.  I can love this baby and my first baby too.  All my boys are loved and I am so thankful to have every one of them in my life.

Today was overall a good day.  We closed on our house today.  We are new home owners.  So exciting.  So much potential for this new house.  I'm so excited to get started with making tweaks to make the home our own.  I really will enjoy this home in the winter and I look forward to exploring the possibilities for the summer.  Central air conditioning will be such a perk.  A laundry room, yay!  Now on to selling our current home.  Bitter sweet, but I have moved so much in my life, change is a constant.  I really have never regretted a move.  I do not feel I will regret this one either.  The world will not end and we still have options for the future.  This will not be my last move, but it will be a move that we stick with for a while to raise our boys.  Good.

Sweet Baby 2 weeks old