New House

I have moved many times in my life.  I have not really felt like home many times, however.  Sometimes you move into a house and it feels like you are still a guest and it is never really home.  You know it's temporary and that you will be moving again, possibly soon.  When a place feels like home it just fits and feels natural from the beginning.  Our home we are moving from felt right in that the home gave me a positive vibe and was meant for me to live there for some reason.  This house, though we are not fully moved into it yet, already feels like a natural fit.  It feels like we have been living here for a long time already.  The sights are familiar and almost deja vu for the living room.  I feel like years spent here will be like home.

I want to make this place for our family, but I realize we can count our living here by the days, just as we can on our youngest's life so far.  It feels like Brian's been around for a long time, but it has not even been 3 months yet.  He is an old soul for sure.  Definitely meant to be mine and in my life.  Both boys will be strapping men when they are grown and I can already see the different personalities coming out.  I am excited to see them grow, but I know how precious this time is moving into a new home and to have a new baby.

I have been thinking about how my time will be best spent and it is with my family and not wondering about how other people fit into our family life.  Whatever the natural fit is for other people in our lives will just happen.  I am excited to move on to a "normal" routine in this house and want this long, drawn out move to be over.  I want to get on to enjoying the yard, house and neighborhood.  Love taking walks already.  Good for me hills and places to stop and play along the way.  Summer is a wasting.  Time to enjoy!!!

Help

Need  help moving if this will ever get completed.  It feels like it will never end.

Love my boys!!!

21 Months Adam & 2 Months Brian

Weeee!!!

Busy Bee

No sleep for the weary.  I have been running and gunning to pack and move daily and entertaining a baby at night.  Ah, the spice of life.  There is never a good time to move or have a baby, let alone both. We have large furniture to move and we are not quite half way moved out of our house.  There do not seem to be enough hours in the day.  The moving part is not the difficulty, it is the packing part that makes this process slow.  Baby holders are so much appreciated these days.  Brian needs to feel the love and it does take a village.  Poor over tired, under fed Adam.  He is such a growing boy who just wants to play hard, eat hearty and to sleep hard.  This transition is difficult for him, but happily it will not last forever and we will be back in the swing of a schedule again.  He has been such a trooper.

Brian is 2 months old already!  He is growing and getting more active and smart every day.  It is amazing to see the process in fast forward compared to the first baby.  He is his own man and to sit back and see the differences in these boys is amazing.  I love Adam, but the love I have for Brian is different and geared specially for each child.  It will be fun once they can play together.  It was like Brian was born to be Adam's playmate.  He already loves watching him no matter what he is doing and Adam already rough-houses with him.  Love it.  Brian is figuring out how to self soothe and to sleep on his back.  Oh, I cannot wait until he learns those skills and sleeps like more of a champ than he already is.  Wonderful.  Bed time, more moving going on later today.  Loving the new house.  I so look forward to the first night we get to sleep in it.  Maybe this weekend :)

Sick Babies

Sick babies make me sad.  I really try to avoid illness or to keep it at a minimum, but it seems we cannot dodge the big bullets sometimes.  The fever, throwing up, sneezing, coughing, sinus drainage and just all around not feeling good.  Poor things both sick at the same time makes the day to day activities on hold.  I am glad I have not overscheduled the next couple of weeks, but some things still have to be done.  Let's hope we can make it to my doctor appointment tomorrow, unscathed.  No guarantees.  I have no fear of canceling because life happens and it will keep going despite canceling an appointment.  Loving watching these boys grow up.  Baby number 2 seems to be growing up exponentially faster than baby number 1 did.  Strange how it is all in fast forward.  Hope we get some sun tomorrow.  I do not feel like toting both kids in a thunderstorm.  Thank you.  G'night

Adam 20 Months old

Looks like a selfie LOL

4th of July

What a good decision to stay local for this 4th of July. Having such a little baby made wanting to stay up late or outside with the bugs for fireworks undesirable.  It was also good we came home early to put the tired boys in bed without having to be careful of the traffic and inebriated people. I will be sleeping in 30 minutes! So excited. Be safe and see all the family I missed this year, next year hopefully.

Easier Days

I do not know if it is because I am more laid back the second time around or if it is just his personality, but baby number two is such a great sleeper and is so much easier. I still have to get up to feed him every couple of hours or so, but diaper changes are only right before feedings at night. Word to all those moms with baby #2: it will be different than baby #1 and you will have learned more than you know from baby #1.  I am still dealing with after baby side effects, but I am so happy to have him!  Today is the first day I can comfortably bend down and pick something off of the floor.  I am excited to be able to move freely and to get my body back!  Freedom!!

Baby #2

 I really could not fathom what it would be like to have a second baby.  My first baby was so precious and I stressed over every little thing to try and do right by him.  I really tried to be present and enjoy every second of baby time, but now looking back I really did not get to appreciate it properly because I was such a tired zombie for 14 months.  I felt overwhelmed and wondered consistently what to do and what was next.  I really could not tell how I would love a new baby as I love my first baby so all consumingly.

When he was born I was numb, waiting for the other shoe to drop with complications.  I had a worse experience with the C-section and then the other complications, but the baby is so sweet, snuggly and lovable.  He is a sleeper, gas bubble maker, good diaper filler baby.  I fell in love so quickly.  The sweet, soft hair and skin is irresistible.  He has his own character and personality that holds it's own and will be his own mark.  He was not kicking in the belly in the last weeks inside me because he is such a sleeper that he would prefer to rest and grow than kick and play.  Brian is wonderful and I can be in love with multiple people and still love the others fervently too.  The feeling is nothing that I could have imagined and so great.  I can love this baby and my first baby too.  All my boys are loved and I am so thankful to have every one of them in my life.

Today was overall a good day.  We closed on our house today.  We are new home owners.  So exciting.  So much potential for this new house.  I'm so excited to get started with making tweaks to make the home our own.  I really will enjoy this home in the winter and I look forward to exploring the possibilities for the summer.  Central air conditioning will be such a perk.  A laundry room, yay!  Now on to selling our current home.  Bitter sweet, but I have moved so much in my life, change is a constant.  I really have never regretted a move.  I do not feel I will regret this one either.  The world will not end and we still have options for the future.  This will not be my last move, but it will be a move that we stick with for a while to raise our boys.  Good.

Sweet Baby 2 weeks old