This Guy...

This is a picture of a 9 month 1 week old boy.

This guy has been consistently crawling on the bed.

This guy has been scooting on his bum while sitting.

This guy has been getting better at walking with and without help.

This guy consistently pulls himself up onto furniture now.

This guy will intentionally sit to turn the pages and look through books.

This guy says mama, dada, bah, up, abuh, ball, bird, uhbuh.

This guy laughs at books and other babies laughing.

This guy is a good sleeper, but goes to bed late.

This guy does not like to get his nails filed.

This guy no longer eats sand while playing in it.

This guy grinds his teeth and craves crunchy foods.

This guy can go to sleep on his own in a dark room if he is ready to go to bed and tired enough.

This guy will nap anywhere if he is tired enough.

This guy is loved and loving.

This guy gives kisses.

Happy to have this guy in my life.

9 Months old

9 Months OLD already.

What a joy.  He was meant to be my little boy.  I cannot believe how fun he is.  I love every minute I get to spend with him.  I think he will teach me much more than I'll ever teach him.  Happy to have such happiness in my life.  Cannot wait for more.  I do already lament him not being a baby baby anymore, but he will not turn 18 for a long time (smile). Sleeping like a baby right now.  I'm already planning his first birthday party in my head.  Ah, and he won't even appreciate it.  Still fun.

Good Things In My Head

I am turning a corner on my roller coaster of life.  I can feel the change coming over me.  It is a positive change and will be great.  I can just tell, great.  I am so close to feeling better in my home.  Nothing a little feng shui could not fix. I just gave to Goodwill yesterday, not enough, I am still on the hunt for more to give.  I feel we are close to babyproofing for a toddler on the move. 

Adam has another tooth visibly erupting.  He sat up and pulled himself up for the first time by himself within the last 2 days.  He is sleeping erratically and his teeth are definitely a contributing factor.  He is developing his love of books and sat for 20 minutes just looking at books 2 days ago.  I love it.  He is such a smiler.  We have been enjoying family walks in this warm summer we are having.

I am ready for Adam's big boy bed to be ready so we can set a sleep routine and get him to stick to it.  Hoping for tonight for that.  I am ready for some rain for my poor flowers.  This summer heat has been brutal for my newly planted plants.  I do not care if the lawn is yellow, dead plants are just sad.  I want to have to mow again.  We have only mowed less than a handful of times this summer.  Rain dance, rain dance.

Hope tonight will be a great relaxing time together.  I plan on getting on a sleep schedule of my own.  I am not a morning person, will likely never be, but I want more out of my day.  I want to wake up, to exercise and stretch, to eat, shower, meditate and to start my day.  I do not want to be groggy all the time.  This is for the birds.  I need to be able to accomplish a great deal before Adam wakes up and then I will enjoy my day fully.  This means going to bed, but that should not be a problem if I get more done in the morning.  Also, I will be tired if I get up early.  I will put him to bed with an hour to spare at night also, giving me time for chores, work or down time.  This is my plan.  I am envisioning my plan in my head so I can instate it.  I close my eyes and picture a productive, well rested mommy that enjoys the whole day.  Ah, feels good.

http://pinterest.com/neowrabbit/

I joined pinterest and thought it would consume all of my time.  I am prepared to do some major brain storming and this will be the best forum for it.  I have only just begun with my dreaming.

Stormy Today

  We got to enjoy mid-seventy degree weather out at the lake today.  Loved the slight breeze.  We had fun watching the storm roll over the lake.  The lightening and thunder were at a distance.  The ripples forming on the lake from the wind picking up were fast approaching.  I had a good time.  Tony grilled great cinnamon chicken with asparagus.  He even got some coconut pie for dessert.  Very thoughtful.  I needed a little pick-me up today.

  The day was so productive for cleaning out items to give to Goodwill.  I also completed cleaning the shower/tub, did laundry, vacuumed, dishes, dusted, re-arranged Adam's room, changed the sheets, watered plants, etc.  Love how the house feels right now.  I know it will only get better as I keep going.  Next is paperwork organization.  My least favorite.  My desk is cleaned off, now it is to re-stock it with projects to be completed.

  Adam is so ready to walk.  He will push himself away from holding onto furniture right now like he already knows what he's doing, but he immediately face plants or falls on his behind.  That is how you learn though.  What a silly.  He did not go to bed until almost midnight tonight.  I have to get him up early tomorrow to ensure he will be sleepy for bedtime.  I discovered a toy that I had been saving until he was big enough in the closet yesterday.  He figured it out right away and now enjoys pushing the plunger and seeing the balls scatter or shoot out of the toy so he can chase down the rolling balls.  He now throws objects pretty well, across the room at this point.  Not excited to get a toy in the head, but I foresee that happening in my future at some point.  He also hits in excitement sometimes.  I am trying to curb that, but when he cannot understand me yet, he thinks it is just funny.  Fun stages.  Reliving childhood with him is great. (Smile)

Positively Thankful

  I had such a rough week.  Today I'm reflecting on some of what I am thankful for.

I am thankful for:

Fluoride to prevent cavities

A husband that takes care of me

The safe house we live in

A sister that allows me to be in her life

A dad that is happy to take my call

A son that makes me smile with joy

A body that allows me to function outside of a bed or chair

Two vehicles that run

The sunshine on my skin

The breeze in my hair

The little batman figurine that lights up the eyes of my son

The electricity that runs our air conditioner

The time to spend with my family

The sand on the beach off of Lake Superior

Honesty

Today was a rough day.

That is putting it lightly.

Not good medical news.

A friend of many years fires me.

Staying up late again to have clean clothes to wear tomorrow.

Killer sinus & tension headache.

A business colleague is a liar, back stabber and a cheat without any remorse or professional manner.

That is enough for me to deal with on top of the consequences of all of these things for me in the near future.  I have enough to think about.  Surprises are the spice of life.  The mantra I have to sing and live by are these....


Be Impeccable With Your Words
Don't Take Anything Personally
Don't Make Assumptions
Always Do Your Best


I'm working on my communication skills and I am a wanna-be reformed pessimist.  Happiness is a choice.  Chose happy.


Honesty is refreshing.  Please, just be honest with me.  


The lake and sand are good for me on these days. Beautiful weather!!!

Dinner and Thinking

  Good to see relatives for dinner.  Regretting the last 2 nights of dinners as they both made my stomach feel sick for hours after eating.  I guess I am so used to my wheat, egg, dairy free diet that my body is not happy when I have large amounts of all of these foods in one sitting over two days.  I have learned my lesson and need to stick to the foods that make my body feel good.  This will help my peace of mind too.

Speaking of peace of mind, I have not had any for months now.  I am worrying about a whole new lot of issues.  Baby and non-baby related issues that are old and new.  I have been so on edge that this weekend just flew by with the to-do list that seems never-ending.  What I would not do for a professional organizer to come into my house and help me on a weekend to clean it out and baby proof at the same time.  I have a love hate relationship with this house.  There are so many aspects of this house I love, those as to why I wanted to buy it.  They are not forgotten, but those that I did not know when we purchased it have cropped up and lingered.  For whatever reason, I have not tended to all I wanted to change about this house.  Obviously there is ongoing change with a new baby now, and all the changes I have done have happened in good time.  Timing is everything and not under my control.  There are only so many things I can accomplish while tending to my 8.5 month old baby in one day.

I am ready for another change.  I can see it coming.  I feel it will be for the better.  I am looking forward to change and hope it becomes routine.  Life is what is happening while I am making plans.  Now I want to live the plans already.  I feel Tony has such a burden he bears humbly.  He is such a good husband and dad.  Without him, nothing in my life would have been possible right now.  I am grateful for him everyday.  Time to take matters into my own hands and do what I have to do, what I know I have to do.  Mental block doing it for some reason.  Odd.

Ah, I feel better now.  Off to the doctor's office tomorrow.  Not real excited, but it must be done.  The answers after doctor appointments are usually better than before I went in.  That is a plus anyway.  Seeking some peace of mind.  Hoping to get that.  Send me positive vibes please.  Thank you.

Adam said, "Da da," over and over again today.  He is moving on with his vocabulary and growing up.  It makes me tear up that he is growing so fast.  He has no fear and is pushing off of furniture in hopes of taking a couple of steps and face planting.  Well, I catch him before the face planting anyway.  My brave boy who just wants to run.  Silly.